If you are. I definitely will be.

Maybe i should stop hoping there's something in return..
But i can't seem to control it..
My heart is not obeying..
Everytime when i tell myself to stop,
My heart is hesitating.

Because of u, I've broken my principles..
Are u really the one?
I hope miracle will happen..
I hope i am not the one thinking too much,
Trying not to put so much hope in this.
But can't seem to suppress my feelings.
The more i suppress myself,
it makes me to have more thoughts of you.

I wonder how u actually feel.
But I am ready at this moment.
Just say it and things will change..

But the thing is.. i don't know what's in your mind..

I think the feeling is coming already..
Should I or Should I Not?

No matter what.. You're still the one

No matter how difficult it is to reach you..
No matter how hard it is to let you know about it..
No matter how impossible it seems to be..

Afterall, you are still my top top fav! :))))

I really hope to meet somebody like you in future..
I really hope so.

婆婆去世了。。
考试考完了。。
Orientation要完毕了。。


是时候加把劲向前冲！！


考试好像不是很顺心呢！：（ 为何每次都这样？？ ：（
我很讨厌我自己为什么不能像其他成绩好的同学一样棒？
婆婆去世了，不知到怎么办。。
心情很矛盾。。


今天是什么日子啊？？？ ：（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（

告诉我，我该怎么做？

今天不懂为了什么，感到自尊心被人掩盖。。心口闷闷地。。。
很没有安全感。
压力很大。。很多事好没做好。
Sem 3 真的有压力叻！！可是我每天都告诉自己要珍惜！！
要好好地过每一天。。要天天都要有收获！！
可是。。 我真的很累。。
不懂怎么搞的，每一天都过得好像火箭！！ 我的天。。
我不能休息！！
如果我开始慢下来。。。 那我上个月所感受，所体会的经历。。都可以完全丢进海水里！！

告诉我，我可以怎么做？

My 20th Birthday! :)

I am 20 years old already!! wheeee.. :)
I am getting wiser and matured..

I am very happy because i knew so many awesome friends from IMU!! :)
My birthday celebration started on Friday!! Fui Yin, Mira and Iz gave me a surprise birthday first.. They are the ones I can't miss out!! Heart them so much!!

When i am back to Seremban, dad treated me 2kgs of CRAB!! my fav! hahaha..
My mummy bought alot of things for my 20th Birthday!! I have new shoes, new dress, new skirt, new earings, new hairband, and what else? hmm... :P
and my beloved BROTHER bought me a bear!! hahahhaa... :D so cute! :) and we had lunch at Shogun, Pyramid.. Shogun gave me free dinner that night! muahahha....

Back to IMU for classes, my awesome awesome Li Zhen, Fab, Yvonne, Aik Zuan, Hwei Ming, Su Wei, Hui Lu, Mei Cheen, Wei Ling planned a surprise for me but failed.. BUT ITS OKAY MY DEAR!!! thanks for the effort in doing all this for me.. :)
In the evening, my Vicar-Vicar groupmates like Baby Si hui, Shiva, Clare, Chin Harn, Sanjith, Sean, Kar Jun and Wellington celebrated for me!! wheee.. they are awesome..
I had 4 20th celebration, so can i say i am 80 years old because i blew 8 big candles!! muahahhaha!!!

MY LIFE IS JUST SO GOOD!! Thank GOD for putting me in the LIEW family, in IMU... <3
THANK YOU ALL!!! <3 <3 <3

I am Happy to be Busy!

Life is so Good until u have no time to think what is coming up next because MY LIFE IS JUST SO GOOD and BUSY! =)
I am glad that i am busy now. and i made it in my exams!! Thank God!!

Classes has started for 2 weeks already and things are getting more difficult as compared to year 1. Currently learning about cardiovascular systems. :)
Getting into sem 3 is what i have been looking forward for.. Still remember when I just entered sem 1, i admired my sem 3 seniors SO MUCH! how bad i want to be in sem 3!! i tell myself no matter how hard it is.. i am going to make it! and today, I MADE IT! :) becoming a doctor is gonna be a reality!!

Tomorrow is my 20th birthday.. Fui Yin, Mira and Iz celebrated for me in Pappa Rich today! haha.. :) so nice of them.. But seriously, when was the last time ppl actually surprise me during my birthday? hahhaa.. It was nice and simple. Actually i don't feel so excited for my birthday because i think my biggest achievement is that i got into sem 3. that is the most joyful moment i ever had in the month of July!! :) Passing my exams is the greatest gift for my 20th Birthday i would say. Thanks my parents who willing to send me to medical school!! if not, i wouldn't get to study medicine, wouldn't get to meet bunch of good friends in IMU. and most importantly, THANK YOU FATHER IN HEAVEN!! If its not YOU who create miracle in my life, i might not get a chance to say.. I AM A 2nd YEAR MEDICAL STUDENT NOW!!! :)

Work hard for EOS 3 is my focus now. yesh! :)

Wow.. Results is releasing in few hours time. What am I to do now? Oh No.. Basically, i can't do anything except to wait for the results to be sent to my email later..
No matter what happens, i will have to stand up and work harder for the upcoming challenges!!

Is Medical School.. A piece of cake? or A chilli padi? :)

Confusion in mind after sleep

I woke up in the morning from a bad bad dream.. I dreamt that i failed my EOS 2, which creates more confusion in my mind. What is happening to me? My heart is not clear and so do my mind yet I can't do anything now.

Was so bored and i browse through my existing post.. Most of them were talking about my studies. How motivated am I, and sometimes how much inspiration i need for my studies. It makes me think of my life is like the ECG (electrocardiogram), my situation is really bad now, it is like fluctuating in a disorderly manner.

I don't know what to talk about, who to talk to, my mind is blank!! I think my mind will keep thinking the same thing, and i guess YOU know what is that running in my mind. If not, just listen to my deep core voices.. :) Wishing me All the Best for tomorrow's results.

Tomorrow is the day which results will be released, and Saturday will be my church camp. I've not packed, I'm still dreaming...... dreaming and dreaming...

Will miracle happens? Only God knows..

Couple of thoughts since EOS 2

I've just changed my blog template again but didn't take much time this time. Its 11.05pm now and so happened my Windows Player is playing "Time for Miracle" followed by "No Boundaries".

Is God giving me signs that there will be miracle happening this Friday? haha.. I really hope so because I've came to this no turning point, where changing to another course is no longer possible. And i never thought of changing course ever since i stepped into IMU. But what slows down my velocity going further is the support i got from my surroundings. It is very disheartening when u feel that your parents is no longer as supportive as before, because they are worried you can't cope with the exam stress and syllabus taught in school.

Well, life has many "should have"s.. and it always happen to me since I know the meaning of REGRET.. After EOS 2 exam, I really felt that I should have done better if the week before was spent more beneficially, pushing myself more rather than coming back home and the study mode instantly decreased. I should have stayed in Bukit Jalil and not eager to come home, perhaps i could make a difference.

BUT, who could really understand(except those studying abroad) that a person staying in a room 24/7 to study, facing the lecture notes, eating alone, and talking to ownself as motivation? All we have to do being alone. Maybe not all of them. but i think there are some people like me became so out of the world during exam period. Initially, thinking of coming back to study will change some peaceful environment for my studies but it doesn't really work.
That particular one week is really crucial yet i think i wasted it. But i wonder what about the rest of my batchmates? Were they doing the same thing as me? Or were they striving very hard for exams..

I've learnt a lesson this time, never take time for granted and always keep ur work up to date. There is no such thing as finish whole Semester 2 lecture in a week. or 2 days. or even 1 day to read and understand. Refreshing maybe??

I took a couple days to let myself chilled and relax at home. but i can tell you honestly, since I started my paper on the first day, tears were rolling on my cheek for 5 days continuously.. This is the results of procrastination, taking things for granted, and never try to set my priority right.
I told myself, i will never water the same situation again.

By the way, results is not out yet. Above is just what i wanted to express few days ago.. And results will be out on Friday, which is not far away. Its coming already. I need to keep myself reminded, no matter what happens.. Life has to move on. Make every decision and action as the last chance u ever had and never regret and never say I Should Have....

A student will not change until him or herself has the urge of doing it.

Distractants must go out of sight only can go out out mind! :)


I MEAN MY LAPTOP!! Grrrr....

哇哇哇！！今天蛮颓废！可是我很享受。。哈哈。。
做了几份MOFA，有高有低。。到底是什么啊？

很想谈天，可是算了吧。。。朋友们都在忙，在读书。。
加油！：）

All is going according to plan.

Trust that there is a bigger picture.

Trust that life is unfolding as it should

I FEEL SO FULL NOW!!! AND I WANT TO SAY....

*My dear college mates will know what i'm gonna say next! *


Just had my brunch and it was AWESOME.. Homecook food from mummy is still the best on the earth. no MSG. no colouring.

Signing off to study! Jia you everyone! :) :)
God Bless You!

压力化动力, 能力可飞升..

当我们对一件工作做得太久的时候,
自然就习以为常, 驾轻就熟, 就变得自满, 不求进步,
连改变的动力也失去了,在不去接受新的挑战..

当环境骤变的时候,
我们就会感觉压力非常大, 难以应付, 不知所措,

其实我们的潜能是无限的,
只要我们将压力化为动力,
将困难视为挑战,
这样我们的人生就会不断充实,
我们的进步就可以永无止境了..

Today is totally a sweet sweet day for me!! <3 <3 <3 aww!! :) :)
My brother brought some homecook food from Seremban for me. Thanks for fetching the food! hahha.. :D
The most i should thank is my beloved mummy.. :) the food is awesome! :)
how do u actually know i left no more food in my hostel already?? hehehe!!! I Love You mom.. :)

For you, my family... I will study hard! :) and make u guys proud of me!!


its raining outside!! :) You can always see rainbow after the rain!! wheee... :) :) :)
Adios! I Love You! :)

This is the time!! This is the time!!!

This is the time i start to fly now!! :D :D :D
i am all motivated! thanks to my senior who bomb at us just now!! LOL...

我突然感觉到我很幸福！！

又是我叻！！ ：） 怎么感觉用华语写比较文雅一点！ 呵呵。 有种在读爱情小说的感觉！
*** 我在写什么？哈哈。。。 ***

最近有点感触，所以就常到这儿留下笔迹！
今天还挺浪费时间的，不懂是不是越靠近考试，越不懂得珍惜，要等到考完后才后悔！
我的天！！
今日好像以往的星期三，跑步去了。。不知是自己身体不够好，还是新的会员很能跑！！
今天出特别多汗！感觉不错！
再跑的时候就一直在想上一届的主席说过，我们跑是因为把不开心，懊恼的事情都抛在后头，勇敢去接受新挑战！当我们跑的时候，没跑一步，风景也不一样，有时很美，有时很普通，甚至有时会不是很美。。那可以拿来形容我们的人生，不是一直都那么美好或者糟糕。人生是有起有落的！！
他的话都是我每次去跑的原因，听了感觉很爽！

可是，到今天我无法跟自己说我很爱跑步！哈哈。。 这像话吗？LOL。。 还是感觉跑步有点辛苦呢！


今天好像很想来个什么惊喜！可是没有人那么无聊去给我做一个啦！考试要来临了！真的要加把劲了！！ 各位batchmates，我们一起加油吧！：）很希望能以第二年的医科学生身份与你们一起在sem3上课，还有。。我很期待orientation!!! :)

又一个人生经历

嗨各位老友。。
新朋友都不知我有Blog，所以就叫你们老友吧！：）

现在是4.46pm，我已经吃过晚餐了。非常饱，好像要涨开那样！！哈哈。。。
没想到我可以吃到烧肉呢！太久没吃了！：）
感觉好像回家那样，因为妈妈会买烧肉给我吃。。<3

最近真的不是过得那么好叻，是不是我说人家的坏话，然后反映在我身上呢？
自从sem2以来，真的没有感觉到那么空虚！！
我要开始修身养性了！我不能再对任何人有偏见了。
每当我开始对某人有不好的思想，心里就会有很多埋怨。。
日夜地累积会很想找人倾诉，把事情全都倒出来。。
还以为我会放轻松了点，
可是，好像有个坏蛋再跟我说。。。 你瞧瞧看，我不会让你轻松的。。
那还是真的。。
讲完不但气没消，而且自己会感觉世界在变。。
我所生气的缺点好像发生在我身上！！

刚巧，那天去教堂。。
牧师有讲到。。
我们不是神，我们并没有资格去批评人家。。
这句话好像在跟我说。。
感觉非常抱歉。。。

我错了。。原谅我吧！

我要天天保持开朗的心情，
有着平凡的心情对待每一个人就是我以后人生的宗指之一！：）

善德菈。刘佩妤 加油吧！！ ：）：）

Exam is coming.. :) oh dear! :D

I have a feeling again. omg.... =,=

Another week GONE!! T.T

And i need more INSPIRATION!!!!!!!

Before i begin my blog writing, i would like to thank God for everything that He has done in my life. :) AMEN!! :D :D :D


I'm back to IMU.. and Life has to move on!! Actually i am still feeling quite happy and excited with my uni life though i've been here for 2 semesters. i have God!! i have great and supportive parents and siblings for my super great education here, great friends in IMU.. what more should i ask for? :)

There're alot to study, but no fear.. :) I am Ready for anything. COME and i will SOLVE it!

I am Craving for Ice-cream!!!!!!!

我不是你想象中那么好

我不是你想象中那么厉害

我不是你想象中那么无忧无虑

我不是你想象中那么开朗。。

至少不是现在。

我不想笑了！！。。。。。

本以为自己已经步入轨道。。走在一个很美丽的地毯。。人生非常美满，非常满足的生活了！
慢慢地才发现自己走在一个不稳的吊桥。我的天啊！！为什么很多事情都不什么顺心啊！！
本以为做了一个对的决定，倒回来想想。。什么？做错了选择。。
我气馁，
我悲伤，
我压抑，
我逞强，

只为了不被人发现。

不知道为何，我觉得我的人生很凌乱。。不知道怎样收拾才好。
我觉得我好像不能顾及太多东西。
有时觉得很想放弃。
很想睡个大觉，起来后什么也不用担心了！
可是这根本不会发生啊！
郁闷。。。。。。。。。。。

I don't care what you think about me..
I just want to life in my own way..

What's my priority?

Currently writing this in a 80% stress mode!! why stress? yesterday was guilty and today's feeling stress up. I have so much to do but yet so little time.
I realized that i have not been managing my time properly, yes.. very not organized, feeling so messy now... thought of hiding myself somewhere so that i would stop thinking and doing what i'm supposed to do.
There's so many things in front of my eyes, yet i can't make it done. I don't know which should i put in my first priority, which should i make it last.. They are equally important!! *Sigh*
I need an energy and a motivator booster. Life in sem 2 is not that easy as i thought.. i used to think if i can manage my time properly, do everything according to plan, think positively. and i shall be fine.
But no, i didn't follow the plan but out of the plan. Until recently or TODAY!! i feel the pain, i feel the urge to change because i am pressured! i found out what i've been doing for the past 1.5 months was just chilling and relaxing. I'm feeling pressured now, which i think it should be good because it pushes me to work harder in my academic performances.
I CAN'T FAIL MY SEM 2!!! I need to pass!!

Not forgetting my walk in Christ. I've been neglecting and didn't put it in first priority.. I'm feeling very guilty, yet i cannot forget my studies.
I have my studies to take care of, I have my responsibility in my club..
Should i hang on with my bible study to breath? I am afraid i can't take it any longer. I need to pass my sem 2!!!

What should i do?

Life has been up and down nowadays. but it has more happy happenings rather than the disheartening.
Something which makes me happy is that I PASSED MY CPR! wohooo.. :)
I made alot of new friends, be it from the senior batch or the junior batch.. they are equally awesome! :)

I've changed my blog title to [A note to be Remembered], and guess what? I'm ready to transform into someone whom i am not used to be. which means, i am ready for all challenges, i am ready to go all out on my studies!! You be my witness my dear friends.. and a long journey awaits me! :)

Actually i do feel guilty today. What is it about? It is about feeling guilty... not to mention it here but I've learnt a lesson. Forgive me would you?


** i promise i will update my blog when i have free time! **

hey guys. :) its been ages since i updated my blog right?!
no worries. i won't write that long because i know u have to adjust to the post again, and i might have to cut it short and tell u the essence of it right? :)

well, i've started 2 weeks of sem 2 and its kinda stinky!! haha.. all the microorganisms really good! they are all very friendly and wanted to be friend with me.. :P
So a responsible friend, i would like to spend more time with them as well as knowing them from up to bottom, left to right, inside to outside, 360 degree!! hahaha.. :)

CPR theory test next tuesday, and the passing mark is 82! Oh godness right? :)

Orientation is starting on tuesday as well. after CPR test, i'll have fun alright.. meanwhile to study too!


till then,
Goodnight! :)