我很疲倦。。。很累了
我是一个外表看来坚强的人吗？看来也是。。
大家都看不出来。连我的母亲也看不了。
让我怀疑，我可以在脸上不露出一丝痕迹的人。

我累了。真的累了。。。
回到这里也不能舒解压力，反而更有压力。
我真的很压力。环境真的让我很压力。。
难道这里不是一个地方可以让我好好静下来，
做我应该要做的东西吗？

是不是我要求太多？
我只爱我的房间，
只有在房间才会一个人进入状况，
才会变成我自己。

我很压力。。很想痛痛快快地哭一场。。

我不是铁人，也不是超人，
很累。。很累。。
抒情歌或者钢琴曲已经没有没效了。。
听了很多，还是这样。。

我不想再演了，
我不想因为顾及他们的感受而感到更多的压力。。
可是，我做不到。我做不到。

Perhaps u should say.. Hey You! go and study. stop blogging!!!

I am damn motivated now! wohoo.. i like u Jeane Lee!!! hahahhaha...

i lose a friend today.
a friend who makes me think of Jay Chou.
a friend who eats tomyam when he's stress
a friend whom i call broter
only both of us know the spelling is correct and what it means.

do u know jay chou is coming out with his new album?
have u listened to his song already?

wishing u have a better life in heaven. and we shall meet again? :)
i'll do what i promised..

there's ntg i can do for u now but to miss u.

Aloha. :)

Its been ages since i updated my blog. i have no internet access in Subang + no laptop = no online = Study + sleep + eat + Study + sleep + eat

finals is coming real soon.. it is starting on 14th May until 8th June. hope i'll be getting all the blessings from my friends! :)
oh yeah. good news. my IELTS. wohoo.. 7.0!! no need to spend another RM 550! thank god

well, i'm waiting for my offer letter from IMU. OMG.. please please please. would u? hmmm..

RC Puteri, this is for u..

Today is NGO competition..
few years back when i was in high school..
i still remember the sweat, hot sun, leg and hand aching experience during training is really a disaster.. sun burn on ur face. etc etc
BUT the joy and laughter after winning is superb, the satisfaction is all worth it afterall :)

Juniors,
there's no gain when there's no pain.
You guys shouldn't cry over a spilt milk.
Be strong!!
Because RC never fail to make ourself down but make ourself proud.

IF you want ppl to agree with you guys, u got to believe urself. and MAKE SURE u give 100% commitment in it. Success never comes easily. Past victory doesn't guarantee anything unless u work hard.

I hope u guys really learn a lesson today. Be confident. and Cheer up for the next upcoming competition. GO! GO! GO!

Sandra staying up late again. :(

Have been staying up late these days. hmm. its already a habit of mine.
suprisingly, there're still many ppl appear online in FB.

uhm,
don't think coming back home is the best thing ever.
i do think so when i was in Subang. but it is sometimes things isn't what u think.
let say, coming home will

(A) MAKE YOU FAT
-hey, my mom is a good cook! :) how can i not to eat when my mom cook? haha.

(B) MAKE YOU FEEL PRESSURED
-uhmm. this gotta thank to my dad. he asked this everyday without fail. "Did you study today?" can u imagine that? uhm. am not complaining.. just that i would like to say, i know what i'm doing daddy...

kay.. i don't know why. i like listening to ear blasting songs nowadays! feel so much relieved after that. very heart easing... But, smooth and sentimental songs is still useful..

i'm writing at odd hour again. its 3.39am now. crazy! heehee..
well just wanna roughly the max i can be awake if i wanna study late at night.
*what an excuse* ahem!! :D

i'm back to Seremban. feeling so good. my house, my room(no sharing with others), my personal toilet, my bed, my study table, my piano, my laptop (fixed!! yeayyy), my parents, my brothers, tv, desktop, OMG. these are just A-W-E-S-O-M-E i left out one thing. FOOD!! super delicious homecook food by mom.

guess what, i'm gonna this 10 days break the fullest!! ehem.. No playing around. but enjoying can lah. its my house. what do u want me to do? hehe.. besides, i'm starting my revision.. supposingly today. but mission failed! teehee.. due to. procastination? laziness? ahh. i don't care wad sort of reasons. no more for tomorrow!

knowing that some of my friends are leaving Malaysia. i feel so much grateful that they can persue their dream according to their way. my way is to stay in Malaysia for degree in Medicine. Owh well, i'm going to IMU for interview this coming thursday. praise the lord that IMU called me. So God has done his part, i gotta do my part.. what i need to do is prepare myself. pray to God, may His presence with me during the interview. and impress the interviewee!

in this coming 1 month, i'm so gonna work hard. since IMU has given me a chance or i should say God has open a door for me. i have to take this GOLDEN CHANCE with all the effort that i can pay. i don't want my dream to slip over my finger just like that. i don't care how much i will pay for this whole month. what i want is my future. my dream to be accomplished.

sound ambitious enough? yeay. u gotta get me right because i must be well motivated enough to have the kick start for every thing i do now. no one is gonna stop me towards the road of success when God is with me all the time.
I wanna be spiritual well fed. God so love me. and so do Jesus. He was that willing to sacrifice for me on the cross. with unbearable pain nailed on him. Why can't i just put a little more effort and sacrifice for my future sake, for my parents, and the most important. for myself.

So yeah, nothing can beat me now. Sandra is feeling so powerful now. hehe.. BUT, i'm sleepy..
GOOD NIGHT FRIEND.

Together we work hard, together we earn success.