wow.. i can actually get excellent grade. hmm :) I felt hard work really paid off this time.
Hmm.. English needs to be improved! yeah. Reader Digest!

Me is Back! :)

Hey, Im back! :)

Well.. its really been awhile since i updated my blog here.
Life has been real busy nowadays especially when i started clinical school since March 2013. There is so much to catch up as Im just an average student in my batch.
There are alot of things I would like to share here. *winks*

Im in Psychiatry posting currently, so yeap. For the non-medic friends, psychiatry is a field in medicine where patients suffered mental illness, emotional disturbance, or abnormal behaviors. I've visited the ward a few times and really feel the in-ward patients are really pitiful at the same time i was feeling scared by looking at them from the glass room.
Well, patient do not choose to be sick nor destined to be staying in the hospital. We as future doctors should really work hard to treat them!

I volunteered in a community project organized by my uni.
I donated blood for the 3rd time in my life! Im really liking it because i feel at least i can help more ppl in this way. No longer feeling afraid if i were asked to donate blood 3 months later. :) But what was a little depressing is my BP is 140/90!! My BP has been high few months ago, and i thought i brought it down.. Guess my family history and diet is playing a very significant role here. I really need to do something in my life, I want to stay healthy instead of popping in hypertensive pills and diabetic pills when i got older. :(

So, I was in-charged of the stress booth as people in the society is getting depressed and stress in life. Such a coincident with my current posting. So psychiatry!! haha.. Actually i wasn't really happy at first because i won't be able to take BP, blood glucose for people. Instead i am just there to see people filling up the form. thats it. But guess what, things turn out to be really interesting and meaningful for me by just asking them to fill in the form and talk to them a little.
God is great! :) He sent angels to answer my queries in my daily life.. Be it relationship problem, studies, and also my medical selective. All my questions were answered! :)
About relationship matters, yes.. I think I have to let go and be neutral.
One lady told me.. Girl, whats important is your studies now. Sometimes when God says He will give you, you take it. If He says He's not giving you. Don't force. You will have a better one. :)
Every sentence that came out from her mouth really hit my heart. I feel very touched at that moment, because i know it is God who wants to clear up my mind and heart.
Besides, it was also my medical selective matters. I can't decide where to do my attachment. So this lady who is our uni part-timer who is in charged of student's medical attachment came to me to do this stress scale. She told me i should go out and have some exposure, and Singapore is really a good opportunity to learn! besides, she told me there's a programme call the student mobility funding. *not sure about the name* that i can apply to get subsidized! :) Although money is not really a big issue, but living cost in Singapore can be a pain because i will be staying there for a month. As i was comparing i won't need to spend alot of money if i have my attachment in Malaysia. But i think i need some different exposure in medical field.

Yeap, and i went to my primary school friend wedding yesterday. It was a great meet up! God works in me again. He knows im thinking who can go with me and send me there as my eldest bro is going to China today so my family wanted to have dinner together. Since i promised to attend his wedding, i have to keep my promise. Dad will have to send me to his house because im not familiar with the road. One of my primary school friend called and said she can send me from my house. Praise The Lord! <3 br="" nbsp="">

I cut my hair.. its really short and i feel im no longer photogenic. I don't really want to take picture nowadays. I seriously feel lack of confidence in terms of my appearance. oh dear.. i know i shouldn't think that way. But i really wish to be a pretty as i was when i had long hair.
For now, i don't even bother looking at the mirror because i know i won't look good. SIGH

拿得起，要放得下

Wake me up.. When September Ends! :)
haha.. its just a song, please dont wake me up at september ends. make sure i'm awake till end of my EOS 5! haha... >.<

Yesterday was Merdeka!! As usual, nothing special.. Its just another day..! lolx
Went to Sri Petaling for dinner.. and came back with a pair of legs and also LRT.. the Bukit Jalil Station was crowded like crazy.. >.<

Sandra is gonna keep upgrading herself..
拿得起，要放得下。是你的就是你的。。。

Good life! :)

Alright!!! Its time for updates again..
Since my last post was May. Should write something from May then..

May


I still remember that time was quite stress up due to summative 4 exam. Everyone seemed quite chill and they said there's no "ohm" for the exam. Well, a student like me don't think so because there's always pressure somewhere either from parents, relatives and also myself. Thank God, result was kinda satisfying..*hooray*!!
Then Ling Chia's 21st birthday! whee.. :)
She loves the surprise. That was my first time planning a surprise for a friend.

June

Cooking month i guess? reason being i was in nutrition and health selective. My group consisting of Chia Wen, Kai Yunn and I actually won the first prize in the cooking competition! yeayyy... 

July

There comes my favorite month!! :) After all the postings and selectives, i went to Hospital KKB for rotation! Oh well, I thank God for such lovely friends around me!

 We are awesome aren't we? :)

 Then TA-DA!!! My birthday celebrations!! hhaha.. :) Thank you so much guys!! <3 br="br">

*Counting* 1, 2, 3, 4, 5.... I had 5 celebrations this year! haha.. Am i like 21years old X 5? hahaha. :P
Feel so blessed with a bunch of good friends, juniors and beloved family! <3 p="p">
August
Good things come and go! sigh..
Sem 5 oh sem 5!!

I used to think sem 5 is such a hard semester to reach and now im here.. should i stop sigh-ing and do something to make myself pass in EOS? haha.. & yeah i should! :)

Well, orientation started yesterday. I joined the first ever event.. aka Ice Breaker.. Uhm.. This year is abit different, its like indoor treasure hunt. So funny looking at all my Streptococcus friends joining the freshie! all the funny names and accent they speak.. LOL.
2 more weeks must hard core d! :) wish me luck!!

Oh My Life! T.T

I have been living in a easy-way-out life this 2 days. Completely 颓废！Promised to study a certain amount of notes but failed. What am i doing. Where did my motivation went!

Feeling weird nowadays, gonna readjust my lifestyle. Chin up and study hard!

I always wonder whether my 6th sense is really accurate, it seems it is.. BUT i always hope its not what i am thinking. Alright, i have to stop thinking because care less will make me Happy! =)

To treat everyone equal without judging them is what i am trying to do now! I miss all my friends suddenly.. I think it is the effect after staying in the room for more than 36 hours! lolx

If you are. I definitely will be.

Maybe i should stop hoping there's something in return..
But i can't seem to control it..
My heart is not obeying..
Everytime when i tell myself to stop,
My heart is hesitating.

Because of u, I've broken my principles..
Are u really the one?
I hope miracle will happen..
I hope i am not the one thinking too much,
Trying not to put so much hope in this.
But can't seem to suppress my feelings.
The more i suppress myself,
it makes me to have more thoughts of you.

I wonder how u actually feel.
But I am ready at this moment.
Just say it and things will change..

But the thing is.. i don't know what's in your mind..

I think the feeling is coming already..
Should I or Should I Not?

No matter what.. You're still the one

No matter how difficult it is to reach you..
No matter how hard it is to let you know about it..
No matter how impossible it seems to be..

Afterall, you are still my top top fav! :))))

I really hope to meet somebody like you in future..
I really hope so.

婆婆去世了。。
考试考完了。。
Orientation要完毕了。。


是时候加把劲向前冲！！


考试好像不是很顺心呢！：（ 为何每次都这样？？ ：（
我很讨厌我自己为什么不能像其他成绩好的同学一样棒？
婆婆去世了，不知到怎么办。。
心情很矛盾。。


今天是什么日子啊？？？ ：（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（（

告诉我，我该怎么做？

今天不懂为了什么，感到自尊心被人掩盖。。心口闷闷地。。。
很没有安全感。
压力很大。。很多事好没做好。
Sem 3 真的有压力叻！！可是我每天都告诉自己要珍惜！！
要好好地过每一天。。要天天都要有收获！！
可是。。 我真的很累。。
不懂怎么搞的，每一天都过得好像火箭！！ 我的天。。
我不能休息！！
如果我开始慢下来。。。 那我上个月所感受，所体会的经历。。都可以完全丢进海水里！！

告诉我，我可以怎么做？

My 20th Birthday! :)

I am 20 years old already!! wheeee.. :)
I am getting wiser and matured..

I am very happy because i knew so many awesome friends from IMU!! :)
My birthday celebration started on Friday!! Fui Yin, Mira and Iz gave me a surprise birthday first.. They are the ones I can't miss out!! Heart them so much!!

When i am back to Seremban, dad treated me 2kgs of CRAB!! my fav! hahaha..
My mummy bought alot of things for my 20th Birthday!! I have new shoes, new dress, new skirt, new earings, new hairband, and what else? hmm... :P
and my beloved BROTHER bought me a bear!! hahahhaa... :D so cute! :) and we had lunch at Shogun, Pyramid.. Shogun gave me free dinner that night! muahahha....

Back to IMU for classes, my awesome awesome Li Zhen, Fab, Yvonne, Aik Zuan, Hwei Ming, Su Wei, Hui Lu, Mei Cheen, Wei Ling planned a surprise for me but failed.. BUT ITS OKAY MY DEAR!!! thanks for the effort in doing all this for me.. :)
In the evening, my Vicar-Vicar groupmates like Baby Si hui, Shiva, Clare, Chin Harn, Sanjith, Sean, Kar Jun and Wellington celebrated for me!! wheee.. they are awesome..
I had 4 20th celebration, so can i say i am 80 years old because i blew 8 big candles!! muahahhaha!!!

MY LIFE IS JUST SO GOOD!! Thank GOD for putting me in the LIEW family, in IMU... <3
THANK YOU ALL!!! <3 <3 <3

I am Happy to be Busy!

Life is so Good until u have no time to think what is coming up next because MY LIFE IS JUST SO GOOD and BUSY! =)
I am glad that i am busy now. and i made it in my exams!! Thank God!!

Classes has started for 2 weeks already and things are getting more difficult as compared to year 1. Currently learning about cardiovascular systems. :)
Getting into sem 3 is what i have been looking forward for.. Still remember when I just entered sem 1, i admired my sem 3 seniors SO MUCH! how bad i want to be in sem 3!! i tell myself no matter how hard it is.. i am going to make it! and today, I MADE IT! :) becoming a doctor is gonna be a reality!!

Tomorrow is my 20th birthday.. Fui Yin, Mira and Iz celebrated for me in Pappa Rich today! haha.. :) so nice of them.. But seriously, when was the last time ppl actually surprise me during my birthday? hahhaa.. It was nice and simple. Actually i don't feel so excited for my birthday because i think my biggest achievement is that i got into sem 3. that is the most joyful moment i ever had in the month of July!! :) Passing my exams is the greatest gift for my 20th Birthday i would say. Thanks my parents who willing to send me to medical school!! if not, i wouldn't get to study medicine, wouldn't get to meet bunch of good friends in IMU. and most importantly, THANK YOU FATHER IN HEAVEN!! If its not YOU who create miracle in my life, i might not get a chance to say.. I AM A 2nd YEAR MEDICAL STUDENT NOW!!! :)

Work hard for EOS 3 is my focus now. yesh! :)

Wow.. Results is releasing in few hours time. What am I to do now? Oh No.. Basically, i can't do anything except to wait for the results to be sent to my email later..
No matter what happens, i will have to stand up and work harder for the upcoming challenges!!

Is Medical School.. A piece of cake? or A chilli padi? :)

Confusion in mind after sleep

I woke up in the morning from a bad bad dream.. I dreamt that i failed my EOS 2, which creates more confusion in my mind. What is happening to me? My heart is not clear and so do my mind yet I can't do anything now.

Was so bored and i browse through my existing post.. Most of them were talking about my studies. How motivated am I, and sometimes how much inspiration i need for my studies. It makes me think of my life is like the ECG (electrocardiogram), my situation is really bad now, it is like fluctuating in a disorderly manner.

I don't know what to talk about, who to talk to, my mind is blank!! I think my mind will keep thinking the same thing, and i guess YOU know what is that running in my mind. If not, just listen to my deep core voices.. :) Wishing me All the Best for tomorrow's results.

Tomorrow is the day which results will be released, and Saturday will be my church camp. I've not packed, I'm still dreaming...... dreaming and dreaming...

Will miracle happens? Only God knows..

Couple of thoughts since EOS 2

I've just changed my blog template again but didn't take much time this time. Its 11.05pm now and so happened my Windows Player is playing "Time for Miracle" followed by "No Boundaries".

Is God giving me signs that there will be miracle happening this Friday? haha.. I really hope so because I've came to this no turning point, where changing to another course is no longer possible. And i never thought of changing course ever since i stepped into IMU. But what slows down my velocity going further is the support i got from my surroundings. It is very disheartening when u feel that your parents is no longer as supportive as before, because they are worried you can't cope with the exam stress and syllabus taught in school.

Well, life has many "should have"s.. and it always happen to me since I know the meaning of REGRET.. After EOS 2 exam, I really felt that I should have done better if the week before was spent more beneficially, pushing myself more rather than coming back home and the study mode instantly decreased. I should have stayed in Bukit Jalil and not eager to come home, perhaps i could make a difference.

BUT, who could really understand(except those studying abroad) that a person staying in a room 24/7 to study, facing the lecture notes, eating alone, and talking to ownself as motivation? All we have to do being alone. Maybe not all of them. but i think there are some people like me became so out of the world during exam period. Initially, thinking of coming back to study will change some peaceful environment for my studies but it doesn't really work.
That particular one week is really crucial yet i think i wasted it. But i wonder what about the rest of my batchmates? Were they doing the same thing as me? Or were they striving very hard for exams..

I've learnt a lesson this time, never take time for granted and always keep ur work up to date. There is no such thing as finish whole Semester 2 lecture in a week. or 2 days. or even 1 day to read and understand. Refreshing maybe??

I took a couple days to let myself chilled and relax at home. but i can tell you honestly, since I started my paper on the first day, tears were rolling on my cheek for 5 days continuously.. This is the results of procrastination, taking things for granted, and never try to set my priority right.
I told myself, i will never water the same situation again.

By the way, results is not out yet. Above is just what i wanted to express few days ago.. And results will be out on Friday, which is not far away. Its coming already. I need to keep myself reminded, no matter what happens.. Life has to move on. Make every decision and action as the last chance u ever had and never regret and never say I Should Have....

A student will not change until him or herself has the urge of doing it.

Distractants must go out of sight only can go out out mind! :)


I MEAN MY LAPTOP!! Grrrr....

哇哇哇！！今天蛮颓废！可是我很享受。。哈哈。。
做了几份MOFA，有高有低。。到底是什么啊？

很想谈天，可是算了吧。。。朋友们都在忙，在读书。。
加油！：）

All is going according to plan.

Trust that there is a bigger picture.

Trust that life is unfolding as it should

I FEEL SO FULL NOW!!! AND I WANT TO SAY....

*My dear college mates will know what i'm gonna say next! *


Just had my brunch and it was AWESOME.. Homecook food from mummy is still the best on the earth. no MSG. no colouring.

Signing off to study! Jia you everyone! :) :)
God Bless You!

压力化动力, 能力可飞升..

当我们对一件工作做得太久的时候,
自然就习以为常, 驾轻就熟, 就变得自满, 不求进步,
连改变的动力也失去了,在不去接受新的挑战..

当环境骤变的时候,
我们就会感觉压力非常大, 难以应付, 不知所措,

其实我们的潜能是无限的,
只要我们将压力化为动力,
将困难视为挑战,
这样我们的人生就会不断充实,
我们的进步就可以永无止境了..